Ren zhi is down with fever and headache for the past three days. For the first day, he slept for more than 30 hours , waking up in between to drink water and to eat panadols. Poor him. Really hope you will get well and be normal again!

You know, really felt that i should make this post, just about him. He is really someone that i love, appreciate and cherish. Whereelse to get a good guy like him? Really.

He always do everything for me. He takes me to work at 9am and back from work at 5pm, everyday without fail. Oh. Except when im on MC ler =P . And in between, he will usually come to my office to fetch me for lunch from 1-2pm. You may think it's normal, but i definitely do not think so. Mostly after 4 whole months of fetching me, surely he will get bored, or do not look forward to wake up so early just to fetch the girlfriend to work... but he didnt. He didnt take it as a chore for him, he is still pleasant about it. Until i also feel kinda shy, having to mafan him everyday :( sometimes i will say "Thank you dear, have to fetch me to work" . Then he will surely say, "You want to be hak hei with your boyfriend ar". ( meaning boyfriend no need to count so much). This may be a small thing to some of you out there, but it really means a lot to me.

After work, as i am a Gunbound addict, i will surely play the game. Since mostly i will be the room master for our team, meaning i cannot be away from the keyboard when waiting for people to come in the game room. I feel that sometimes i never choi him :( .

Then, when we go out eat, he will ask me, what do u like to eat for dinner? Then me as the lucky girlfriend get to choose. Cos i usually dont like to go for malay food except for mamak session as i personally feel that there are not much choice in malay restaurants. Chinese food we have laksa, char koay teow, chicken rice, gai pa fan, etc :D Then my lao gong will surely accomodate me, and bring me there to eat :)

Even that day after work, at around 7pm, when he is tired, just to test him :
Me : Eh, let's go watch movie
(^^) : What movie?
Me : Cinema movie.
(^^) : Where?
Me : KLCC lor, can reach there faster ( must give a reasonable place to sound realistic )
(^^) : Ok lor, let's go
Me : !!!!!!! Joking only lar!

I thought the answer will be... "Harrrrr.. wan meh?" or "So late already..weekend ler" or "So far.." but instead........ =)

And oh, i think he fell sick bcoz he did not have enough sleep that day, cos of me :( . On friday night, he didnt sleep the whole night, playing games. I was with my mum at Damansara as my mum and sis came down to KL to go get some stuffs from IKEA. Renzhi planned to meet us at Saturday morning. So on that morning when i called him ( he didnt sleep yet ) , said "can i dont want to go ar"... then i said " dowan lar, say to my mum already"( i didnt know he didnt sleep whole night) then he said "ok la, i come". He had to sit the lrt for 21 stops to reach the Kelana Jaya station. Then walked together with us in IKEA. Pity my dear le. But all the things he did, even the small little things like, helping me take my bag, when i sit on his motor he still touch my hand, not just let me hug him only.. two-way communication! haha.

It's not just these things that made him a good boyfriend. These are just some of the things that came to my mind within this 5 minutes.

The conclusion is, i love him and i appreciate everything he did and still do.

I just don't get it when some of my friends will say, "You always got boyfriend, sure forget friends". I am NOT that way. i do remember u all, but i am the kind of person, where i am comfortable just being at home. I don't like to go out after work as i am really tired, and i am happy enough at home. Weekends are also usually spent at home unless we plan to go to SushiKing or for movies or something. But we are happy at home. You may ask me, what do i do at home, but i really don't know. So what? Im happy and contented. It doesnt mean that if i never go out with u all, i will forget about u? I do know about you people from your blogs or friendsters. Although i never leave comments, i still want to know how are you and i care. Another thing is that i do not have my own car in KL. Going anywhere is far to me. I do not like to take buses. I feel that it is a waste of time and energy and also smelly. I'd rather be at home, reading my story books or playing my game.

It's also not the case where my boyfriend doesnt like me to go out with my friends. He is very okay about it and does not control me. Even if i want to go out with..example, my old schoolmate who happens to be a guy, he is ok about it. He knows i love him and trust me. Thats what love is all about right. Which reminds me of a friendster conversation i had with my old schoolmate :

i wrote to him :
hey your place so near my place! i always go to the mamak near your house with my boyfriend. next time i ask him drop me there then we go mamak talk lar!

and he replied:
Your bf so open minded meh, fetch his gf go meet another guy @@Don't necessary have to meet up at my housing area what. Can meet up at shopping complex also ma... Zzzz...

Hm.... whats wrong with fetching the girlfriend to meet another guy ar... and it's not open minded also, it's normal and there is trust. I feel mamak is more appropriate coz if a guy and a girl were to go to a shopping complex, what to do there? i look at clothes, he follow behind ar? surely i will suggest watch movie wan ma... but then watch movie how to talk? then go to mcdonalds to talk? =.="

Back to the topic, many people will say, "You need to have your own friends and have a life of your own". Well, i do have my friends. Just that maybe some of my friends, you do not know them. And that circle of friends, my boyfriend knows them too. So surely going out with these friend will include my boyfriend as well. And i am not bored with seeing my boyfriend everyday, so why complain? I enjoy his company, as his company is the best. The personality i love best. That is NOT pretentious, being the true self. I feel relaxed with him, i do not have to put on makeups, dressed in sexy revealing clothes or talk in a fake cute voice just to get his attention like some of the girls do. I get to be myself. Can do ugly faces with him, yawn wide wide in front of him, or ask him to see got pi sai stuck on my nose or not . haha.

Come to think of it, i think that is why i love to be at home and also to be with him. Simple. I love to be comfortable with myself and my surroundings.

As some people put it, true relationship comes when the silence between two people is comfortable.

scribbled @10:55 AM

In the process of breaking up a relationship, the person who speaks out first or the one who initiates the idea will get hurt less. Maybe he/she is mentally prepared and willing to go through the break up process.

I read a story from the xiaxue blog, a really crazy story until u can hear yourself saying, "WAHLAU, like this also can meh? "

the story(edited for better understanding) goes like this :

Mum told me about this unfortunate client of hers whose husband fucked the maid.GROSS.The poor lady came over to our place and stayed for hours, not willing to go home to see witness her poor plight.Now she is not a looker, and is really softspoken. She had school till sec 4 maybe, and since then have worked in her husband's minimart (who is owned by the mother-in-law) all her life, slogging and giving birth to 4 children for him. (1 mth to 6 years old)The husband then had a freaking affair with the maid, and guess what? HE WANTED HER TO STAY ON IN THE FAMILY! He wanted the wife to accept that he was in love with her, and that she was to not send the maid back!THEN WHAT THE CHILDREN GROW UP TO CALL THE MAID MOM AH?!I CANNOT believe that that guy had the atrocity to have such a demand at all!

The stupid wife wanted to send the maid back, but the husband found the hidden passport and kept it, so she (said) she couldn't do anything. *roll eyes*All she did was to cry.The husband and the maid would disappear for hours on end, leaving the minimart and children under her care, and they would COME BACK WITH LOVE BITES ALL OVER.As if it's not enough, the maid also didn't do her work, and would hit the kids and pull their hair! OMG. It's a one month old baby, and the wife let the slut maid take care of her kids! How stupid is she?The maid would also throw things around when she is angry, and the HUSBAND DOESN'T DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT.Can you imagine? Not only you have to live in the same damn house as the other cheap woman your husband is fucking, you have to pay her money, and also take in her tantrums!Wah that maid is really horrible.

The husband would fondle and massage the maid publicly in the minimart, and there was once an auntie who was a regular customer came in, went to the cashier, and told the wife, "Wah, can like that, very good hor, do work for you, and can touch her somemore! Can like that ah?" in Hokkien.The wife just kept quiet, and at night, she told the husband not to do such things in public (what, only in public cannot ah?!), because people will talk.The husband shouted at her back again, so she called Momo to cry.-_-And oh yeah. When the husband and wife quarrels, the maid would stand at the side and SNIGGER.I was like, "Why doesn't she tell the agency that the maid has been doing this?" but Momo said that she was afraid the husband would have to go to jail for fucking the help. WHICH HE TOTALLY DESERVES I SAY!

Anyway, so this silly wife didn't do anything, until Momo, being a heroine, stepped in and, together with the wife's brother, had an ultimatum showdown with the husband.Either he gives the passport to them, or they will report him to Ministry of Manpower and make him go to damn jail! (which is too good for unrepenting scum like that)So he did (give the passport, not go to jail), and the maid was sent back today. In the airport she kept sms-ing the husband, and when the agency people told her to stop, she went to throw another fit and broke her sim-card in half.OMG, I really need to box her so bad.

Today's juicy news just came in, and the man told Momo that he is gonna divorce his wife and use his mom's name to bring the maid back into Singapore again coz he really loves her and he wants to "pursue his dreams".Momo told him that if your dreams hurt so many people please go and die or something like that.

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i juz wonder, does she really love her husband after he did this? i think the guys also would not support this stupid guy. Am i right? O.o

scribbled @10:29 AM

Let me explain to u the logic of crying while watching a movie/drama.
First of all, it is NOT DUMB to cry.
Actually i am not even crying, it's only tears strickling down my cheeks mar!
Im merely touched by the story that's all, i'm not crying my heart out!
I also cry when the characters are happy ma, example when they get back together, or dad and son reunion haha!
In my opinion, guys also cry wan lor! They are just scared that another person will see it only.
They have to use up all their strength just to control their tears while the girls will relax while watching and let the tears flow freely.
So, we girls, are NOT pretentious! =D

Anyway, im watching the drama (lau gam shui yuet (cantonese)) again.
Anyone who already watched this show can whistle along with me the theme song!
But but but.. i cant whistle =.=
I simply loveeeeeeee GALLEN LO (law kar leung)!!!!!!!!!!!
So nice guy in that show... i dont think there is anyone like this in this world lor!!!
So sayang the family.. Wow wow wow wow wowww
And so yau yeng :D
Not saying that he is 100% handsome , but in that show, he has the full package!
nice guy + yau yeng + good son + mature = *melts*





Lastly, although out of topic..

not every tree can stand thirst, but CACTUS did it..
not every flower can represent love, but ROSE did it..
not every animal can represent bravery, but LION did it..
not every idiot can read blogs, but YOU did it!! weeee!!!

p/s - cant wait to see mummy this weekend~

and oh yea, dear, just ignore this post's title ~ :D

scribbled @9:59 AM

IM SUFFERING !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i understand now why pregnant ladies always hold near their waists/backs when they walk...
coz im...... PREGNANT TOO!!!!
hehe no lar, siao meh...
but im having the similar aches!

Oki, lemme explain further..
my pains are exactly like OR CHEH ( blueblack,bruises)
they are painful when i leave them alone, and also when i touch them!
My mum said that it is because of the chairs im sitting at work, but how come my friends do not face the same problem? :(
WHY ME??!!

Haih, someone pls help me, im in pain =/

Mr.Doctor, i show u where the pain is ...



The RED stars are the places which are causing me pain throughout the day...
It looks like she is holding two prickly red porcupines heheee
i chose this shape coz a circle wont look so painful...
this shape looks like it is shouting HELPPP ARGHHHH
then the colour red of course, as red sybolizes danger and pain =(

By the way, the picture above is not my body lar...
I actually can choose whether to put the above picture or this:



Obviously , i chose the first one lar, hor!

scribbled @2:50 PM

Blog for yesterday 5th Sept

Went to Midvalley to meet my old school frens.
So nice to see them all after so many years!
David ( meich's hubby) and JiaHuey(her super naughty daughter) also went!
For Yuen, XiWen and Meich, it has been more than a year since i last seen them, and for LiShih, ViVien, Sook , MingChu and Maxine, it has been FOUR freaking years!!!!! WAHHHHH
But we all still look young and youthful as always lar haha
Actually i feel most of them still look the same, talk the same, still same old sampat =)We went to Kim Gary to eat, thanks to David ( Meich's hubby) , free dinner!
But shy also ler, coz so many of us..
We were the noisiest group of people at Kim Gary, laughing at dumb jokes and old times
But at least i'm updated a bit now hehee... know who is at which place, although dunno how to reach there
Anyway, i did take my camera there, just that it went out of battery after 2 photos...

*yuen, pregnant meich, me* notice that i look tallest? MUAHAHAHA. thank to heels


* the last pic of the day* group photo

Hey those of u who brought cameras that day, send me send me!


Really nice to get back with them, somehow they are different from other friends.


Reached home at 11.30pm.
Exhausted.
Eyes pain.
Logon to Gunbound at 12am. Whole day never touch Gunbound. Couldnt resist to play a few rounds with Daingaujing and Fish.
At 1.30am, give up.
Fever. 2 panadols. Renzhi cover me with blanket. SLEEP.

scribbled @12:48 PM

Got this from a forwarded email weeks ago... I was browsing through the trash can, and i really hope that everyone will read it :)
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On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms. The bridal car stopped in front of our one-room flat. My buddies insisted that I carry her out of the car in my arms. So I carried her into our home. She was then plump and shy. I was a strong and happy bridegroom.This was the scene of ten years ago.

The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water: we had a kid, I went into business and tried to make more money. When the assets were steadily increasing, the affections between us seemed to ebb. She was a civil servant. Every morning we left home together and got home almost at the same time. Our kid was studying in a boarding school.Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy. But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes.

Dew came into my life.

It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me from behind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love. This was the apartment I bought for her.Dew said, You are the kind of man who best draws girls eyeballs. Her words suddenly reminded me of my wife. When we just married, my wife said, Men like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls. Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife. But I couldn t help doing so.I moved Dew s hands aside and said, You go to select some furniture, O.K.? I ve got something to do in the company. Obviously she was unhappy, because I had promised her to go and see with her.

At the moment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something impossible to me.However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it. No matter how mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt. Honestly, she was a good wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner. I was sitting in front of the TV. The dinner was ready soon. Then we watched TV together. Or, I was lounging before the computer, visualizing Dew s body. This was the means of my entertainment.

One day I said to her in a slight joking way, suppose we divorce, what will you do? She stared at me for a few seconds without a word. Apparently she believed that divorce was something too far away from her. I couldn t imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious.
When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out. Almost all the staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide something while talking with her. She seemed to have got some hint. She gently smiled at my subordinates. But I read some hurt in her eyes.

Once again, Dew said to me, He Ning, divorce her, O.K.? Then we live together. I nodded. I knew I could not hesitate any more.When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. I ve got something to tell you, I said.She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want to divorce. I raised a serious topic calmly.She didn t seem to be much annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? . I m serious. I avoided her question. This so-called answer turned her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! .

At that night, we didn t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew.With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart. The woman who had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day. But I could not take back what I had said.Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer.

A late night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I saw her writing something at the table. I fell asleep fast. When I woke up, I found she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again.She brought up her divorce conditions: she didn t want anything from me, but I was supposed to give her one month s time before divorce, and in a month time we must live as normal life as possible. Her reason was simple: our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and she didn t want him to see our marriage was broken.

She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, He Ning, do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day?This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me. I nodded and said, I remember . You carried me in your arms , she continued, so, I have a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce. From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out from the bedroom to the door every morning.I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end her marriage with a romantic form.

I told Dew about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she does, she has to face the result of divorce, she said scornfully. Her words more or less made me feel uncomfortable.

My wife and I hadn t had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. We even treated each other as a stranger. So when I carried her out for the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly, Let us start from today, don t tell our son. nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for bus, I drove to office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn t looked at this intimate woman carefully for a long time. I found she was not young any more. There were some fine wrinkles on her face.

On the third day, she whispered to me, The outside garden is being demolished. Be careful when you pass there.On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms. The visualization of Dew became vaguer.

On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as, where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc. I nodded. The sense of intimacy was even stronger.I didn t tell Dew about this.I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. I said to her, It seems not difficult to carry you now.She was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried quite a few but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, All my dresses have grown fatter. I smiled. But I suddenly realized that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily, not because I was stronger. I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart. Again, I felt a sense of pain. Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head.Our son came in at the moment. Dad, it s time to carry mum out. He said. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential part of his life. She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute. I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.

On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. She said, Actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old.I held her tightly and said, Both you and I didn t notice that our life was lack of such intimacy.

I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision. I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door. I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I won't divorce. I m serious.She looked at me, astonished. The she touched my forehead. You got no fever. She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I can only say sorry to you, I won t divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn t value the details of life, not because we didn t love each other any more. Now I understand that since I carried her into the home, she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old. So I have to say sorry to you.Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst out crying.

I walked downstairs and drove to the office.When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife which was her favorite. The salesgirl asked me to write the greeting words on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until we are old....

Touching huh? I hope all of you guys out there carry your wife out every morning until you are old. :)

scribbled @4:15 PM

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